EX-Porn Star Danielle’s Story: How I Got out of the Porn Industry


Hi Everybody!

Again, I’m putting another disclaimer for this post. It’s quite heavy and yet mind-blowing. It is definitely for an 18+ audience with graphic details so please watch at your discretion. It is mature subject matter and yet I feel for those that struggle with watching Porn, this video testimony might enlighten you, for those that know of anyone thinking of going into this industry or are in it, know that you can get out of it and that you don’t have to stay there, whether you’re a guy or girl.

Danielle William’s Story

When I first watched Danielle’s story, I was heart-broken and yet sobered up by the realities of other peoples struggles. Her testimony sheds light on how women see themselves, what addictions are and how such places as the Porn industry work to ruin lives of those who watch it and also those engaged in the industry. The Devil is real people. What I found interesting in her testimony is how many people who participated in watching porn were also the very same who would pay to have porn-stars like Danielle and or prostitutes as their personal escort were also “Christian” men in the Church. Now, I know we have a lot of people in the world who struggle with Porn, but we can’t act like it’s not in our back yard. What I also love about her testimony is that she explains how she still felt she was a Christian even though she wasn’t living up to the standards of her beliefs. God revealed to her the truth of what she was living through and how “Money” played a big role in her continuing to be a Porn Star. Money became her God and this led her to be trapped for a time in this dangerous and risky business. She explains the role that STD’s and AIDS plays out in the industry and she also explains how much women make versus what men make in the industry.

Watch her video

After watching it, I thought to myself that Pornography is definitely the devil’s play ground. Although I was exposed to it at the age of 5, I felt that the pictures were rather degrading and evil. Women are not creatures with insatiable desires as these pictures depict and it is no wonder why some young ladies dress up scantily clad trying to imitate these pictures just to get a guy to “notice” them. Their self image in these pictures and videos sell an idea that assumes you have to do these things to get noticed, to get appreciated to get validated as an attractive woman and to get “loved”. These are definitely lies from the pits of hell being fed into especially young minds of young girls and boys that need to be dismantled. Ladies, I’m here to tell you that God didn’t design you to be this way.God created every person to be fearfully and wonderfully made.

Psalm 139:14
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.

Virtue should be your mantle and not these scandalous and dangerous activities. It is easy to land in these places and you’ve got to wonder, is it such a mystery as to why some men and women struggle with bulimia, anorexia nervosa, self-injury, suicidal thoughts, drugs, alcohol etc  to numb the pain when they are bombarded with magazines,  television, advertisements in different forms of social media that depict images of what an ideal man or woman should be by the world’s standards? No, it is not a mystery and yet things like Pornography which is a mutli-billion making industry fuel these ideas by those fueled by greed, money and lust at the expense of our generations losing their self-worth and identity. We are losing generations folks, to perversion and violence and the more we hide it under the rug, the more we allow for this culture of genocide to continue. That’s right, you read correctly when I said a “Culture of genocide”. I know using the term genocide sounds strong, but generations are dying because of how we have allowed for such things to control our society, our families and our children.

We feed addictions at the cost of people’s lives and I find this all to be rather really sad and it grieves my spirit to know that young people can’t talk about this stuff freely because of ridicule and condemnation, especially those that are in the church. It is yet another hush hush topic and some are afraid of being judged in a Christian circle because of the high standard expected of young people. The ‘I’m a Christian and yet I struggle with watching porn” isn’t something someone wants to testify let alone admit to because of the thought of, “What’s wrong with me?…I know that it’s wrong but I can’t seem to stop”.

People, it’s a serious stronghold that needs to be broken with much deliverance and healing and EDUCATION.

Christian or no Christian, Porn has it’s own demons and it doesn’t discriminate on who its victims are…you can be a Christian and watch it and you can be a Non-believer and watch it, but the effects of Porn remains the same. It breaks people’s spirits, it breaks relationships and peoples marriages. Let me just say that men aren’t the only participants who watch it, young girls do too from the ones I’ve talked too, but they are ashamed to reveal that because of the social stigma that places women at a higher standard than men to be participating in these activities. I’m here to tell you that women watch Pornography just as much as men do, but many books always focus on men’s issues regarding it because we know it’s an obvious area that targets men, but trust me when I say that there are a lot of closet women who do watch it too and it is no wonder why there is a rise in pre-marital sex, there is a rise of single-mothers all because Sex has been perverted by this industry (as a factor but not the only reason) that thrives to drive people away from what God intended sex to be for which is for the sacred institution of Marriage with One Man and One Woman – just to make that clear.

My abuser obviously had a problem with Porn and she was a woman…a “Christian” one at that… so don’t assume that I’m only talking to men who watch it because women do too and for different reasons. For men it maybe more for physical release whereas for women it maybe more for emotional release.  I won’t profess to be an expert on this topic, but I’m just laying out my opinions. I’d be very interested to hear other people’s feed back on this so please by all means comment below and let’s have a discussion.

For the men that watch it, I’m not here to condemn you at all about those that watch it, but understand how you viewing it continues the violence that these young women experience. There has been research to support that most sexual offenders imitate what they have seen in Porn videos and afflict the same activities on their victims. Sex Trafficking is a major issue in foreign countries and it is also happening in our back yards which is also another arm to fuel the Porn industry. Men…you have to break the cycle if you want to be serious. You must believe that you can overcome the temptation of it all by admitting that you may have a problem and you need some accountability for it. Seek support groups and do what you have to do in order to be set free from the addiction of watching Porn. God want’s you to know that we all have the ability to have self-control and you need to embrace that truth.

2 Timothy 1:7
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and selfcontrol.

Titus 2:12
It has trained us to reject and renounce all ungodliness (irreligion) and worldly (passionate) desires, to live discreet (temperate, selfcontrolled), upright, devout (spiritually whole) lives in this present world,

2 Peter 1:6
And in [exercising] knowledge [develop] selfcontrol, and in [exercising] selfcontrol [develop] steadfastness (patience, endurance), and in [exercising] steadfastness [develop] godliness (piety),

Suffer no delusions and wake up people! You are a victim if you watch it and/or participate in it, but God wants to break these addictions and the only way to be free from them is by confessing it for what it is (Repentance) and then seeking some Godly counsel or some effective support groups to help deal with these issues before they spiral out of control.

Porn effects both men and women, young or old in respect to their self-image.

Remember Danielle’s testimony and realize that this industry affects how we view ourselves for those  of us who are in the Body of Christ. I encourage everybody to do some serious soul searching and some real-talk about this issue with some support system and accountability partners so that we break the cycle of self-abuse and continual abuse-by-proxy by continuing to watch Porn that affect the people who participate in the industry. Spread the word and feel free to share this post if you think it will help somebody.

Danielle is an amazing conqueror and overcomer as an EX-Porn star that has battled her demons in this evil industry and she is a living testimony that you can be set free from the stronghold of the Porn industry and from Pornography.

The glamor of it all is false and it’s amazing how young ladies are suckered into this place driven by lust and money. Guard your children parents! Vigilance is key here especially in their formative years. Consider that Men, if you don’t show the proper respect you have for your wives and daughters…your children will look elsewhere for some validation. God forbid if they land in this industry that may cater to their emotional needs not being met or other perverse avenues. Mothers, your sons need to be taught how to respect women by you being an example that is attractive to follow. A women of virtue is definitely a Proverbs 31 woman. They need to respect you at home and Fathers need to train men in the way they should go so that they don’t depart from your wisdom.

Proverbs 22:6
Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.

Ephesians 6:4
Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.

Do not judge your children harshly if you find out that they do in fact struggle with Porn or drugs or whatever addiction. The last thing a child wants to hear after they confess their issues is utter condemnation from their parents…this continues to facilitate their silence. Be open and discuss openly rather than fueling their silence to their struggles with your criticism. Ask yourself how would Jesus address the issue, with Love? or Condemnation? You play such a vital role in a Child’s life and freedom comes in an environment where love surrounds them and cultivates a safety net where they are free to express themselves without fear of condemnation. You can shut a child down by condemning words rather than with compassion.

Well that’s all I have to say  on this topic so I hope this post blesses somebody today and may Truth break the silence.

I recommend Sister Res’s blog for more information regarding information on the topic of sexual abuse. She has amazing posts that have ministered to my spirit. I totally recommend them.

Articles of interest from her blog are:

Sex Trafficking from the 13th Floor

The Bible and Child Sexual Abuse I

The Bible and Child Sexual Abuse II

I also Recommend these Resources via http://therproject.org/wp/cornerstone-church/fighting-for-purity/:

ONLINE RESOURCES

X3 watch – FREE. X3 watch sends fortnightly reports to 2 email buddies with questionable sites visited. It also says when the system has been turned off. (works on computer and even handheld devices!)

Covenant Eyes – Covenant Eyes Software provides Internet Integrity with accountability reports.

XXXchurch.com Don’t let the name put you off! This site is doing a great job at fighting for purity online. Very good advice for parents + links to some more helpful sites.

FREE EBOOKS

Porn Again Christian – Mark Driscoll

RECOMMENDED BOOKS

Every Man’s Battle by Stephen Arterburn and Fred Stoeker

Sex is Not the Problem, Lust Is by Joshua Harris

Sexual Detox: A Guide for Guys Who are Sick of Porn by Tim Challies

To Finish off, I also have a Song from J.R. called Temptations. May this song Minister to you today.

God bless you Everybody!

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Feed Your Spirit, Don’t Starve it!


Hello Everybody!

I know I have been kinda busy with Easter activities last week since I was involved in a Cantata that went very well by the way. We performed twice on Good Friday and Resurrection Sunday and let me tell you it was warfare throughout the production but I believe we reaped a harvest of righteousness in that some people found salvation through the play (James 3:18). I was soo worn out by it all that I decided to take a break from blogging for a while just to rejuvenate and now I’m back and would like to share something with you today. I just wanted to share a thought that occurred to me yesterday when I was at cell group participating in an inner healing course, and it’s about how we view ourselves “Image-wise” in our walk as Christians in the Body of Christ.

The Word of God is living and powerful as it gives life to us but that’s only if we meditate on it day and night and feed our spirit-man with it daily. It occurred to me that we have people in the Body of Christ who are anorexic in their spirits.

“Anorexic in their spirits? What are you talking about SHERLINE!!!??”

Let me explain.

I shared this thought with the group I was with yesterday and thought it best to share it here on the blog. When I pondered about this further…it kind of horrified me because it was such an epiphany. How do we perceive ourselves in the Body of Christ?

What are we feeding or NOT feeding our Spirit-man???? 

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Consider that the natural disorder of Anorexia nervosa  is an debilitating condition that targets the mind of a person to feel convinced that they are overweight and/or obese when in fact they are below the normal average body mass because of their inappropriate eating habits. It becomes difficult to rehabilitate a person who is completely convinced that they “just have to starve their bodies” in excess of food to maintain what they think is “ideal” in body figure. This starving behaviour becomes a serious disorder that fragments the persons mental functions and capacity to rationally reason in that as they continue to starve their bodies in excess, their mental functions become impaired and this often leads to death when left untreated.

The major issue of this disorder is linked to self-perception – which concerns how one views their Self-image and their Self-worth. It becomes an unhealthy obsession that is targeted at becoming the “perfect ideal image” by the World’s definition and standard in light of how the world perceives the individual.  It is amazing how one can look in the mirror and see an obese image of themselves when in reality, they are actually and most likely average and healthy on the outside.

This way of thinking is very dangerous and debilitating to ones self-image because of the mere fact that all it takes is a person’s decision to believe and accept a LIE in order for one to suffer such a mind-breaking, soul crushing and physically deforming disorder. 

I’m of the opinion that the disorder of anorexia deforms a persons true worth, true perception of self, and true physical nature and form of their body by such a negative belief that “You’re not good enough until….you fit societies standards and definition of self-image”. The Word of God says you are FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE!!!! Why try to conform to societies standards when the solid rock foundation in which we should stand is the WORD OF GOD (The Bible).

Romans 12:2
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

Ephesians 4:23
and be renewed in the spirit of your mind,

Believing in a lie has dire consequences to ones life-span. Anorexics are caught up in a lie that affects them on an emotional level, physical level and spiritual level. In the same way, lies affect our spirits as Christians. 

Ask yourself, what are you choosing to believe in??? The Truth or the Lies???

When you see how it operates in the natural it is now easy to understand how it also functions in the Spirit.

How do we view ourselves and how are we feeding our Spirit?

When I think about that, I think about how we as Christians do the same thing.

Are we anorexic Christians seeking validation from how the World perceives us or are we strong in our conviction and believing in the report of the Lord?

We must believe in the Word of God and believe in how God sees us and not allow ourselves to be obsessed with trying to “fit in” the world’s definition of our own self-image because that is a COUNTER-FIT (Counterfeit) way of thinking.  We are Children of God and we are made in His image and likeness from the very beginning of the foundation of this world.

The World has in a way dulled our senses and made us disillusioned about who we are in Christ by trying to define us through fashion magazines, television, media, school, history, religion, philosophies, etc…but we need to stick to the WORD and believe in that Word.

The only way to escape becoming a “spiritually anorexic Christian” is by feeding your spirit-man with the WORD that GIVES LIFE and a LIFE OF ABUNDANCE.

REMEMBER: You have the choice and the ability to believe in a lie or believe in the TRUTH. The Way of TRUTH is Life…and the way of Lies is Death. So my epiphany to you today is Seek to feed your Spirit man with the TRUTH so that you don’t end up like a lost Christian obsessing over your image by filling yourself with unhealthy habits,unhealthy thought patterns, and unhealthy activities that potentially starve and grieve the Holy Spirit in you. Believe in the WORD of GOD and eat of it, for in it there is Everlasting Life!!!!

I Have here a Song to minister to your spirit today by Men of Standard  (feat. Tye Tribbett) called YOURS. May it bless you today everybody!

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Scriptures to Meditate

Psalm 139:14
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.

Psalm 119:27
Make me understand the way of Your precepts; So shall I meditate on Your wonderful works.

Philippians 4:8
[ Meditate on These Things ] Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthymeditate on these things.

Genesis 1:26
Then God said, “Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness; let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over the cattle, over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth.”

John 14:1
[ The Way, the Truth, and the Life ] “Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me.

John 11:40
Jesus said to her, “Did I not say to you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?”

John 12:47
And if anyone hears My words and does not believe, I do not judge him; for I did not come to judge the world but to save the world.

Hebrews 4:12
For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.

Zechariah 8:9
“Thus says the LORD of hosts: ‘Let your hands be strong, You who have been hearing in these days These words by the mouth of the prophets, Who spoke in the day the foundation was laid For the house of the LORD of hosts, That the temple might be built.

Ephesians 6:10
[ The Whole Armor of God ] Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might.

1 Corinthians 3:16
Do you not know that you are the temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you?

1 Corinthians 6:19
Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own?

2 Corinthians 6:16
And what agreement has the temple of God with idols? For you are the temple of the living God. As God has said: “I will dwell in them And walk among them. I will be their God, And they shall be My people.”

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Be Remarkable – Be Agents of Change


I have 2 Motivational Videos for this Weekend. I just found them as I was looking for something else but it is essential to reflect on our self-image as we go about our daily business. God created us and we are all “Fearfully and Wonderfully Made”, because we serve an Awesome God in whom we should Fear reverentially. He didn’t craft dummies in this world because we are all made in His Image and likeness so we are all remarkable beings.

Let us learn to BE REMARKABLE!

We all have something to contribute by way of skills and talents to make this world a better place but it is up to us to determine whether or not we want to become AGENTS OF CHANGE in a world that is starving for the true light of Gods Love to touch peoples hearts and change their lives of wickedness and sin to loving-kindness and righteousness.

If we really desire the world to change, then understand that the answer to the worlds problem lies within us. God inside of us the Hope of Glory. We are the answers that we seek if what we seek is change. We can only become the change that we want to see.  Think about that as you watch these videos and may inspiration be birthed out of you to choose to become an Agent of Change. May these videos inspire you and bless you today. 


Scriptures to Meditate

Psalm 139:14
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Genesis 1:26
Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”

Deuteronomy 15:10
You shall surely give to him, and your heart should not be grieved when you give to him, because for this thing the LORD your God will bless you in all your works and in all to which you put your hand.

Deuteronomy 28:13
The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom.

Romans 5:2
through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.

Ephesians 1:17-19

17 that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, 18 the eyes of your understanding[a] being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, 19 and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power

Colossians 1:27
To them God willed to make known what are the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles: which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.

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