EX-Porn Star Danielle’s Story: How I Got out of the Porn Industry


Hi Everybody!

Again, I’m putting another disclaimer for this post. It’s quite heavy and yet mind-blowing. It is definitely for an 18+ audience with graphic details so please watch at your discretion. It is mature subject matter and yet I feel for those that struggle with watching Porn, this video testimony might enlighten you, for those that know of anyone thinking of going into this industry or are in it, know that you can get out of it and that you don’t have to stay there, whether you’re a guy or girl.

Danielle William’s Story

When I first watched Danielle’s story, I was heart-broken and yet sobered up by the realities of other peoples struggles. Her testimony sheds light on how women see themselves, what addictions are and how such places as the Porn industry work to ruin lives of those who watch it and also those engaged in the industry. The Devil is real people. What I found interesting in her testimony is how many people who participated in watching porn were also the very same who would pay to have porn-stars like Danielle and or prostitutes as their personal escort were also “Christian” men in the Church. Now, I know we have a lot of people in the world who struggle with Porn, but we can’t act like it’s not in our back yard. What I also love about her testimony is that she explains how she still felt she was a Christian even though she wasn’t living up to the standards of her beliefs. God revealed to her the truth of what she was living through and how “Money” played a big role in her continuing to be a Porn Star. Money became her God and this led her to be trapped for a time in this dangerous and risky business. She explains the role that STD’s and AIDS plays out in the industry and she also explains how much women make versus what men make in the industry.

Watch her video

After watching it, I thought to myself that Pornography is definitely the devil’s play ground. Although I was exposed to it at the age of 5, I felt that the pictures were rather degrading and evil. Women are not creatures with insatiable desires as these pictures depict and it is no wonder why some young ladies dress up scantily clad trying to imitate these pictures just to get a guy to “notice” them. Their self image in these pictures and videos sell an idea that assumes you have to do these things to get noticed, to get appreciated to get validated as an attractive woman and to get “loved”. These are definitely lies from the pits of hell being fed into especially young minds of young girls and boys that need to be dismantled. Ladies, I’m here to tell you that God didn’t design you to be this way.God created every person to be fearfully and wonderfully made.

Psalm 139:14
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.

Virtue should be your mantle and not these scandalous and dangerous activities. It is easy to land in these places and you’ve got to wonder, is it such a mystery as to why some men and women struggle with bulimia, anorexia nervosa, self-injury, suicidal thoughts, drugs, alcohol etc  to numb the pain when they are bombarded with magazines,  television, advertisements in different forms of social media that depict images of what an ideal man or woman should be by the world’s standards? No, it is not a mystery and yet things like Pornography which is a mutli-billion making industry fuel these ideas by those fueled by greed, money and lust at the expense of our generations losing their self-worth and identity. We are losing generations folks, to perversion and violence and the more we hide it under the rug, the more we allow for this culture of genocide to continue. That’s right, you read correctly when I said a “Culture of genocide”. I know using the term genocide sounds strong, but generations are dying because of how we have allowed for such things to control our society, our families and our children.

We feed addictions at the cost of people’s lives and I find this all to be rather really sad and it grieves my spirit to know that young people can’t talk about this stuff freely because of ridicule and condemnation, especially those that are in the church. It is yet another hush hush topic and some are afraid of being judged in a Christian circle because of the high standard expected of young people. The ‘I’m a Christian and yet I struggle with watching porn” isn’t something someone wants to testify let alone admit to because of the thought of, “What’s wrong with me?…I know that it’s wrong but I can’t seem to stop”.

People, it’s a serious stronghold that needs to be broken with much deliverance and healing and EDUCATION.

Christian or no Christian, Porn has it’s own demons and it doesn’t discriminate on who its victims are…you can be a Christian and watch it and you can be a Non-believer and watch it, but the effects of Porn remains the same. It breaks people’s spirits, it breaks relationships and peoples marriages. Let me just say that men aren’t the only participants who watch it, young girls do too from the ones I’ve talked too, but they are ashamed to reveal that because of the social stigma that places women at a higher standard than men to be participating in these activities. I’m here to tell you that women watch Pornography just as much as men do, but many books always focus on men’s issues regarding it because we know it’s an obvious area that targets men, but trust me when I say that there are a lot of closet women who do watch it too and it is no wonder why there is a rise in pre-marital sex, there is a rise of single-mothers all because Sex has been perverted by this industry (as a factor but not the only reason) that thrives to drive people away from what God intended sex to be for which is for the sacred institution of Marriage with One Man and One Woman – just to make that clear.

My abuser obviously had a problem with Porn and she was a woman…a “Christian” one at that… so don’t assume that I’m only talking to men who watch it because women do too and for different reasons. For men it maybe more for physical release whereas for women it maybe more for emotional release.  I won’t profess to be an expert on this topic, but I’m just laying out my opinions. I’d be very interested to hear other people’s feed back on this so please by all means comment below and let’s have a discussion.

For the men that watch it, I’m not here to condemn you at all about those that watch it, but understand how you viewing it continues the violence that these young women experience. There has been research to support that most sexual offenders imitate what they have seen in Porn videos and afflict the same activities on their victims. Sex Trafficking is a major issue in foreign countries and it is also happening in our back yards which is also another arm to fuel the Porn industry. Men…you have to break the cycle if you want to be serious. You must believe that you can overcome the temptation of it all by admitting that you may have a problem and you need some accountability for it. Seek support groups and do what you have to do in order to be set free from the addiction of watching Porn. God want’s you to know that we all have the ability to have self-control and you need to embrace that truth.

2 Timothy 1:7
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and selfcontrol.

Titus 2:12
It has trained us to reject and renounce all ungodliness (irreligion) and worldly (passionate) desires, to live discreet (temperate, selfcontrolled), upright, devout (spiritually whole) lives in this present world,

2 Peter 1:6
And in [exercising] knowledge [develop] selfcontrol, and in [exercising] selfcontrol [develop] steadfastness (patience, endurance), and in [exercising] steadfastness [develop] godliness (piety),

Suffer no delusions and wake up people! You are a victim if you watch it and/or participate in it, but God wants to break these addictions and the only way to be free from them is by confessing it for what it is (Repentance) and then seeking some Godly counsel or some effective support groups to help deal with these issues before they spiral out of control.

Porn effects both men and women, young or old in respect to their self-image.

Remember Danielle’s testimony and realize that this industry affects how we view ourselves for those  of us who are in the Body of Christ. I encourage everybody to do some serious soul searching and some real-talk about this issue with some support system and accountability partners so that we break the cycle of self-abuse and continual abuse-by-proxy by continuing to watch Porn that affect the people who participate in the industry. Spread the word and feel free to share this post if you think it will help somebody.

Danielle is an amazing conqueror and overcomer as an EX-Porn star that has battled her demons in this evil industry and she is a living testimony that you can be set free from the stronghold of the Porn industry and from Pornography.

The glamor of it all is false and it’s amazing how young ladies are suckered into this place driven by lust and money. Guard your children parents! Vigilance is key here especially in their formative years. Consider that Men, if you don’t show the proper respect you have for your wives and daughters…your children will look elsewhere for some validation. God forbid if they land in this industry that may cater to their emotional needs not being met or other perverse avenues. Mothers, your sons need to be taught how to respect women by you being an example that is attractive to follow. A women of virtue is definitely a Proverbs 31 woman. They need to respect you at home and Fathers need to train men in the way they should go so that they don’t depart from your wisdom.

Proverbs 22:6
Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.

Ephesians 6:4
Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.

Do not judge your children harshly if you find out that they do in fact struggle with Porn or drugs or whatever addiction. The last thing a child wants to hear after they confess their issues is utter condemnation from their parents…this continues to facilitate their silence. Be open and discuss openly rather than fueling their silence to their struggles with your criticism. Ask yourself how would Jesus address the issue, with Love? or Condemnation? You play such a vital role in a Child’s life and freedom comes in an environment where love surrounds them and cultivates a safety net where they are free to express themselves without fear of condemnation. You can shut a child down by condemning words rather than with compassion.

Well that’s all I have to say  on this topic so I hope this post blesses somebody today and may Truth break the silence.

I recommend Sister Res’s blog for more information regarding information on the topic of sexual abuse. She has amazing posts that have ministered to my spirit. I totally recommend them.

Articles of interest from her blog are:

Sex Trafficking from the 13th Floor

The Bible and Child Sexual Abuse I

The Bible and Child Sexual Abuse II

I also Recommend these Resources via http://therproject.org/wp/cornerstone-church/fighting-for-purity/:

ONLINE RESOURCES

X3 watch – FREE. X3 watch sends fortnightly reports to 2 email buddies with questionable sites visited. It also says when the system has been turned off. (works on computer and even handheld devices!)

Covenant Eyes – Covenant Eyes Software provides Internet Integrity with accountability reports.

XXXchurch.com Don’t let the name put you off! This site is doing a great job at fighting for purity online. Very good advice for parents + links to some more helpful sites.

FREE EBOOKS

Porn Again Christian – Mark Driscoll

RECOMMENDED BOOKS

Every Man’s Battle by Stephen Arterburn and Fred Stoeker

Sex is Not the Problem, Lust Is by Joshua Harris

Sexual Detox: A Guide for Guys Who are Sick of Porn by Tim Challies

To Finish off, I also have a Song from J.R. called Temptations. May this song Minister to you today.

God bless you Everybody!

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The Cell – Leave Your Prison!


Hi Everybody!

It’s been a dynamic weekend for me. I’ve been pretty busy with work and what not and have also been registered as an attendee for the Power Up Conference hosted by the Toronto Mass Choir. They are sooooooooo awesome and let me tell you I was in two sessions of vocal boot camp today and it was awesome!!!!!! I have never experienced this level of training for worship. These people are so amazing and I totally would recommend anyone who ever wants to do something like that in your neighborhood to go while you can. Grab every opportunity to enhance your giftings/anointing. I am soo exhausted though but I’m still pumped enough to give you guys a video of inspiration after all this because Praise is my WEAPON! Hallelujah!!!!! GIVE GOD PRAISE!!!!!! ok I guess you can tell I’m a little pumped and excited. The Conference isn’t over and it’s been an amazing 2 days of intensity and just being surrounded with God-fearing people wanting to grow in God has been an awesome awesome experience.  Those hooked up on my facebook page for this blog, you can check out the vid I posted on there after the second session of vocal boot camp. We were just Giving God all the praise. He is SOOOOOO GOOD. I just love God and had to share that with you all before I start this post.

Ok so for those following my blog, this whole week I’ve been meditating on what it means to Fear God (reverentially), to Repent, to recognize our Weaknesses or failures and to acknowledge that we need the help of our Savior in our Walk as we battle our weaknesses. Sometimes we accept the fact that God forgives us for our sins when we get saved, but we still end up in situations where we are still bound up by guilt and shame because we have not really learned to make Jesus Lord over all areas of our lives. Believe me, I’m still workin’ on it.  We still need His help after we are saved because sometimes we are left with scars from past hurts or are left with guilt and shame for things we struggle with in our path to righteousness. Reflect on allowing God into those areas of your Life. Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life (John 14:6) so let Him help you when you struggle with your weaknesses. He is a God that helps those that seek His help so when He comes to break you free from guilt and shame, from pain and discouragement, from hurt feelings and afflictions experienced by the injustice of others, ask yourself, Will you let JESUS break those things which are chaining you down from moving on and reaching your full potential and set you free???? Sometimes, we hold ourselves back from allowing Jesus to set us free in these areas because of how wounded we are, but wounds shouldn’t fester…Let God Heal every part of you so that you can become WHOLE again!

Here is a Short Vid to help you think about that last question and pray about the things that are keeping you bound up in the first place. Freedom comes when you admit you Need the Help of your LORD and SAVIOUR, JESUS CHRIST, SON OF GOD. 

I also have a great song since I’m in such a singy and praise and worship mood to end this post for the weekend. It’s from Darwin Hobbs and it’s called Glorify Him. I Pray that it ministers to you today as it always does for me! GOD IS AWESOME EVERYONE!!!! Stay blessed everybody!

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Scriptures to Meditate

John 14:1
[ The Way, the Truth, and the Life ] “Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me.

John 14:6
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.

Zechariah 9:11
[ God Will Save His People ] “As for you also, Because of the blood of your covenant, I will set your prisoners free from the waterless pit.

Romans 6:18
And having been set free from sin, you became slaves of righteousness.

Romans 6:22
But now having been set free from sin, and having become slaves of God, you have your fruit to holiness, and the end, everlasting life.

Romans 10:9
that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.

Romans 12:2
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

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The Importance of Repentance that Allows for Release of Blessings


Day 7 of 21 Day Daniel Fast –  So today’s meditation is concerning the need for repenting and fessing up our mistakes, failures, wrongdoings, offenses against other people, against ourselves and ultimately against GOD. If we really want God to hear from heaven regarding our need of His hand of Mercy and Grace on our lives, we need to put everything that doesn’t represent Him under the Blood of Jesus Christ. We need to confront our sinful natures and also the sins of generations past in order to cause God to hear our prayers and heal us, restore us, fight for us and turn us away from condemnation.When we refuse to repent because of our puffed up pride or simply because we’re in denial of our wrongdoings and willful behaviors that cause us to be in trouble or cause us to be left in pain, we leave no room for God to help us out of our situations.

Today, I emphasize the need for us to seriously look deep within ourselves and renounce the things that keep us from progressing in our lives. Seek Gods face for forgiveness of all sins known and unknown, for things we have done or have failed to do (Commission & Omission), for the things our relatives and generations past have done that are affecting your current generations/or future generations that we have not been put under the Blood of Jesus Christ. I am referring to Generational curses/tendencies such as i.e. alcoholism, abuse, divorces, rejection, anger and bitterness, slander, murder etc. Whatever it is, put it under the Blood during this time of Prayer and Fasting and seek God’s face to heal your afflictions and restore the years where you suffered because of Guilt and Shame and also Unforgiveness.

Essentially, repentance is a call for serious humility. It says in the Word that:

John 14:6
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.

So, everything that we need to repent for during this Fast must first be put under the Blood so that we can come to the Father and He will hear from heaven when we humble ourselves and Pray and seek his face as we turn from our Wicked ways.

2 Chronicles 7:14
if My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land.

The promise of Repentance is that He will heal Us and He will Heal the Land. When the Land is Healed, everything begins to prosper and therefore, we will prosper. So I implore you to think about repenting for your past mistakes and failures and for the past mistakes and failures and sins that have been past onto you from generation to generation through bloodline sins. Seek God’s forgiveness in these areas in humility and set aside your pride so that God will Hear from Heaven. Also, do not forget to forgive those that have wronged you. As hard as this may sound to believe, God will forgive you when you also learn to forgive others as well no matter how grievous their offense may be. 

James 4:6
But He gives more grace. Therefore He says: “ God resists the proud, But gives grace to the humble.”

Because we are engaged in a Spiritual battle, you have to be aware that the Devil would rather have you suffer in your PRIDE and NOT repent than see you go on your knees before God and repent because He (Jesus) is the one that can set you Free from the Devil’s schemes.

John 8:36
Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.

Isn’t it better to walk in the freedom of the Word of God that says He’ll forgive if you repent than be enslaved to sin?

Remember to not participate in this 21 Day Daniel Fast (or any other Fast for that matter) in vain and Fast with a purpose to Change your Ways, your thoughts, and most importantly YOURSELF.  Think about all this during your meditations.

I have a song that I love yet again to share with you to meditate on How much God loves you enough to send His only Begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him should not Perish but have everlasting Life (John 3:16).

He Forgives All so seek to be Forgiven by repenting for all your mistakes and failures that you have committed, that your families have committed which include others who have done wrong against you. Seek God’s Hand of Forgiveness so that He may bless you with DIVINE Freedom from condemnation, guilt and shame. This song is from Dietrick Haddon and it’s called AMEN. Be Blessed by this Song.

Scriptures to Meditate

Joel 2:12
[ A Call to Repentance ] “ Now, therefore,” says the LORD, “ Turn to Me with all your heart, With fasting, with weeping, and with mourning.”

Matthew 9:13
But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy and not sacrifice.’ For I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance.”

Mark 2:17
When Jesus heard it, He said to them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance.”

Mark 6:12
So they went out and preached that people should repent.

Luke 15:7
I say to you that likewise there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine just persons who need no repentance.

Luke 15:10
Likewise, I say to you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”

Luke 17:3
Take heed to yourselves. If your brother sins against you, rebuke him; and if he repents, forgive him.

Luke 24:47
and that repentance and remission of sins should be preached in His name to all nations, beginning at Jerusalem.

Acts 3:19
Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, so that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord,

Acts 11:18
When they heard these things they became silent; and they glorified God, saying, “Then God has also granted to the Gentiles repentance to life.”

Acts 17:30
Truly, these times of ignorance God overlooked, but now commands all men everywhere to repent,

Revelation 3:19
As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten. Therefore be zealous and repent.

1 John 1:7
But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.

Revelation 1:4-6

4 John, to the seven churches which are in Asia:

Grace to you and peace from Him who is and who was and who is to come, and from the seven Spirits who are before His throne, 5 and from Jesus Christ, the faithful witness, the firstborn from the dead, and the ruler over the kings of the earth. To Him who loved us and washed[a] us from our sins in His own blood, 6 and has made us kings[b] and priests to His God and Father, to Him be glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen.

Romans 12:2
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

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